I guess it was already quite awhile since i wrote for this blog..Not because i have nothing to say, but sometimes i'm juz not in the mood for it..sorry for those who had been constant reader of my blog..
Publicly my life is okay..i have very nice friends around me, i have my fun with them, got pretty good result, i'm laughing, i'm smiling till my cheeks hurt n no one could ever guess that i'm actually pretty hollow inside..
Nothing seems right anymore..I feel lost and alone..My purpose in life is fading..hope is no longer in my dictionary of life..And i don't think anything will get any better soon ..
N right now all i can do is fighting n keep struggling..Struggling juz to get on going..I'm trying to find myself again..
But one thing for sure..I no longer have the courage to dream..Maybe one day i'll try again..But it will definitely not now..
Warning:Any inquiry of how am i doing n why did i wrote this post will be neglected right away..