Emotional Dumpster...

There's nothing wrong in expressing urself using ur own words n style..

2011-02-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

I love blogs..Even when i didn't write one i still love to blogwalking, reading interesting stories that others want to share. There are some good stories with superb writing skills that u can find none grammatical errors whatsoever that u can't help urself to admire it and there's superb stories with broken language, purposely misspelled words but still the post managed to be one of the most enjoyable one i ever read..

The point is, a great blog doesn't have to be one with perfectly written grammar..yes, sometimes the correct usage of grammar is important as it will help the reader in getting a clear understanding of the post written, but as long as the meaning reach the reader, who cares if the writer purposely misspell words to be seen as cute or just because they are more comfortable in spelling it that way..it's their blog, it's their way of writing and if there's people who judge other people just for how they spell the words in their blogs,they are definitely one small minded people indeed.

Blog is a medium for one person to share things or used to express feelings.. It's not fair to say that bloggers who purposely misspell words or don't use correct usage of grammar as language destroyer or criticized them just for doing so, blog is suppose to be one's personal way of writing.. They are free to use whatever methods or spelling they want, even by putting their own style in it.

Just because one don't have excellence knowledge of writing doesn't mean that one should stop from doing so and blog allow us to do just that,writing without worrying that it won't be published for the lack of language knowledge..

So people keep writing..Don't mind those small minded people who only know to judge people by spellings and language usage..Don't be intimidated by other great blogs who has thousands of fans and comments for each post..Ur blog is suppose to be about you..Feel free to share anything u like and write it in ur own words and style..U too have right to blog out ur ideas.

I'll be waiting for ur next posts..jia you!

Merah itu menawan..

2010-09-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

Aku dari kecik sampai besar kurang suke pada warna merah..
baju aku satu pun xde y warna merah..kalau korg ade pernah tgk aku pakai baju merah tu maknanya baju tu adalah baju yang aku pau dari almari kakak aku..biasalah barang dia barang aku tapi barang aku bukan brang dia..hehe..
so kenapa ek aku kata merah itu menawan??
sbbnya setiap kali aku tgk cermin skrg ni apa yang aku nmpak adalah merah..
mataku sudah menjadi merah..ya aku sudah terkena Viral conjunctivitis atau nama femesnya sakit mata..
jujurnya aku xpernah kena penyakit ni..baru first time...mula2 roommate aku yang kena..bila aku masuk bilik tgk mata die dh merah..aku dh cuak..yela kan org kata penyakit mata ni berjangkit..tapi die ngan coolnya bleh ckp x doktor kata penyakit ni susah nk berjangkit..so aku pun dengan bendulnya percayalah ckp dia...nah tgk apa jadi???Rasa nk saman je doktor yang dia jumpa tu..dahla bagi dia mc satu hari je..ade ke patut..mana bleh org sakit mata bagi mc satu hari..kalau berjangkit sape susah??aku jugak....damn...

tapi yang bestnya sakit mata ni cuti lama...aku ari tu dapat mc dengan sepital 3 hari..campur weekend jadi 5 hari..pastu aku g kat klinik private lak die ckp kalau nk mc nnti mc aku abis bleh mntak agi...best giler..aku dapat mc je terus balik umah..aku suka balik umah..bila aku balik umah mama aku masak sedap2..gerenti aku balik u ni nnti badan aku abis bengkak2..mana xnya ari pertama balik aku disajikan ngan ikan siakap 3 rasa..ari kedua nasi ayam..ari ni laksa ngan sate...untuk esok sbb mama aku ada mesyuarat dia dah masak siap2 nasi impit n kuah kacang dengan rendang ayam..sedap siut...mama aku mmg pandai masak..kerja aku kat umah selain tido adalah makan,makan n makan...kadang2 ayah akan ketuk pintu bilik(sbb aku dalam kuarantin aku kunci bilik xbg org masuk) antar buah anggurla,fresh orangela,agar2la ..ada mcm puteri x??aku saaaaaaayang sgt sama famili aku..hehe..

yang xbestnya aku kana kuarantin..bukan family aku suruh aku yang nak..aku risau takut nnti ada yang jangkit ngan aku..umah kiteorg ni kan ada baby..selain risau takut baby tu pun nnti kena jugak aku xnk yang lain2 rasa mcm ape yang aku rasa..seksa gila bile dgr baby auni gelak,tgk badan die yang tembam comel tu geram je nk peluk2 n cium2..baby auni merupakan permainan kegemaran kami sekeluarga..seksa gile rasanya bile xleh main ngan die..so aku xnk yang len pun xleh dekat ngan auni..sedih kot...

sekarang ni kalau xtgk cermin aku rasa mcm xde pape je..macam org normal yang len..tapi bila tgk cermin rasa nk menjerit "mak!!!hantu!!!" pun ada..aku pun xkenal rupa aku..sacry gile especially bile baru bangun tdo rambut tgh panjang mengurai...huhu..

no worries aku yakin mungkin esok wajahku mungkin akan menyerupai cantiknya bella lepas bertukar menjadi vampire dalam novel breaking dawn...maklumlah merah itu kan menwan......

Shattering dreams..

2010-09-22T13:39:00.000+08:00

I guess it was already quite awhile since i wrote for this blog..Not because i have nothing to say, but sometimes i'm juz not in the mood for it..sorry for those who had been constant reader of my blog..
Publicly my life is okay..i have very nice friends around me, i have my fun with them, got pretty good result, i'm laughing, i'm smiling till my cheeks hurt n no one could ever guess that i'm actually pretty hollow inside..
Nothing seems right anymore..I feel lost and alone..My purpose in life is fading..hope is no longer in my dictionary of life..And i don't think anything will get any better soon ..
N right now all i can do is fighting n keep struggling..Struggling juz to get on going..I'm trying to find myself again..
But one thing for sure..I no longer have the courage to dream..Maybe one day i'll try again..But it will definitely not now..

Warning:Any inquiry of how am i doing n why did i wrote this post will be neglected right away..

Dulu dan sekarang...

2010-08-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

Ini dia tyme masa mula2 aku jumpe dulu..kurus kan??org kate tyme sebelum ni lg kurus..susah nk makanla katakan..

Tpi bila dah jumpa aku (n ade ckit possibility effect vitamin penambah selera yang die amik dulu2 tu br berkesan) dia.....

Makan!!

Makan!!!

n makan lagi!!!

akhirnya jadila begini..hehe

Baru 2 tahun kenal dah bulat mcm ni...akan datang????kite tgk jela nnti ek..
xkire ape pun no matter how u'll look like in the future u'll always be the machoest in my eyes syg..
ilu.

ps:post ini hanyala result kepada rasa rindu akibat lama tidak berjumpa...tidak bermaksud untuk mengeji dan mencela..hahaha...i mish u honey damn much..

The poyoness of The Last Air Bender..

2010-08-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

Poyo!Poyo!Poyo!Poyo!! the word i kept chanting throughout the whole movie...I hate this movie..I am one of the people who love the avatar series since it was aired on nickelodeon...I watched them over n over again until i can even memorize some of the dialog and scenes..This movie was a huge disappointment to me..The movie completely ruined the real series of avatar..The storyline was changed ruining the coolness n the awesomeness of the real scenes in the series like the part when Aang tried to change the earthbenders mind in opposing the firenations..the real scene was suppose to show desperate peoples locked in a metal ship with no earth to bend and was so close to losing hope and refuse to fight even after he tried hard to bring coals on the ship so that the earthbenders can bend again until one son of them started to fight back..not just simply shows the 'poyo'ness of katara and Aang begging almost closing to tears to a group of earthbenders that were surrounded by earth..

The actors and actresses were poyo(i'm sorry i don't know how to translate poyo in english..i guess it was quite close to the meaning of trying to fake something cool)..What's with the Aang always seems like a kid who was on the bring of tears?Where's the goofiness and seriousness of Aang?even the pronunciation of Aang was wrong..Not to mention the pronunciation of Iroh(by the way iroh was a thin old man in the movie which completely opposite of the real Iroh).Katara was poyo..She just seem like the fake katara in the teater they watched in book 3.i mean in book 3 the fake katara was a joke but for the movie?it was damn annoying seeing her like that..Even Sokka was not that funny..Seriously don't they make any study on the series before making the movie?Zuko was indian i think or firenation was similiarized with indian race but really it was totally odd and weird to call someone who completely look like and indian using chinese or japanese name(i can't quite differentiate which more suitable but really don't u think name like zhou,zuko n ozai was more suitable for asian people..(no offense to the indian)..it was completely ridiculous.

I know i was rather harsh on this movie but seriously if u asked me to rate this movie i will give it nothing..I know adaptation movie will not be as the same as the real one but hey i can accept Harry Potter and Narnia..Though they were not quite similar to the novels as they need to be shortened but still the coolness and awesomeness of the stories didn't lose in the movie..

Overall i hate this movie..Thank god i didn't waste my money on watching it in 3D..

Musim buah:Besynye balik kampung..

2010-07-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

Aku merupakan antara student2 malang yang mempunyai kelas pada ari sabtu..Jatuhnya kelas aku pada hari sabtu membuatkan aku sangat malas untuk balik ke rumah atau kampung..dahla ari isnin pagi2 ada kelas..tapi semalam lain sikit..mama call:adik buah tengah banyak kat kampung ni..nak balik balikla.. katanya yang membuatkan aku berasa sgt teruja untuk pulang ke kampung halamanku..so tanpa pikir panjang dengan sehelai sepinggang selepas kuliah aku terus ambil monorel ke titiwangsa.aku ke kaunter bas bulan restu..mak aii panjangnya barisan..aku berpindah pulak ke kaunter metrobas pun ramai..damn..aku sangat xsuka beratur panjang..aku ke kaunter seterusnya..kaunter bas warna merah yang agak buruk2 sikit tapi xde org pun..aku pun terus beli..ape aku kisah bas buruk janji xpayah beratur...ternyata anggapan ku silap..rupanya bas yang aku ambil tu bas lompat2...patutla xramai org amik..perjalanan yang patutnya hanya mengambil masa 2 jam jadi 4 jam..dahla buruk bergegar2 bau asap..mabuknya aku tuhan jela yang tau..cis..pengajaran yang aku dapat pada hari itu ialah jika mahu bas yang selesa n cepat sampai rajin2la beratur..biar bersusah2 dahulu janji senang kemudiannya..

petang tu kami anak beranak turun padang untuk mendaya buah(istilah yang digunakan oleh wan aku untuk kait buah)

ayah n abang wan bertungkus lumus untuk mengutip rambutan..

langsat

kakak n trophynya(alasan xyah turun kutip buah) n wan yang bertindak selaku pengarah program..

aku(pinjam baju wan sbb xbwk baju) sedang mengasingkan buah sbg bahan untuk resipi baruku teh rambutan..telah terbukti sedap...

tyme bawak auni jalan2 sekitar kampung n meniti sungai pahang...

aku still rasa muka anak sedara aku lebih pada lelaki dari perempuan..tp xpe mamasu still rasa auni comel ye...

title of this photo given by my sis:minah indon rempit..

juz enjoy my kampung view..ignore the me in my grandmother's blouse at the centre will u?

atok n his precious buffalo...

kolam ikan kesayangan wan..pagi tadi ayah memancing dapat jelawat seekor lampam seekor..nyum nyum...

kalau ada sesape nmpak antara 2 kereta ini bagaikan dipandu oleh mat rempit yang baru dapat lesen kereta itu bermakna akulah yang memanduanya kerana pemandu lain dirumahku semuannya berhemah belaka..xlebih 80km/j pun..tension..slow sgt..

Buah-buah yang berjaya kami kutip..banyak...tribute to abg wan...kepada sepupu sepapatku yang xbalik lagi tu balikla cepat ye...rugi..mester ngan manggis tgh banyak ni...

Beruntungnyalah aku ada kampung yang best mcm ni...tapi aku rasa antara yang bestnya balik kampung ni sbb tok n wan aku sangat meraikan dan happy bila tengok kiteorg semua balik..yelakan tyme diorg masih ada ni jela kan kite kena hargai sepenuhnya..so next week kalau ada rezeki balik lagi..buah tgh banyakla katakan..hehe..

ciao..

ps:aku rasa ayat aku mengarut sangat..abaikan ye...

Hanging out in KLCC

2010-07-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

This is us..The main role of today's event..

As i was free of classes today i went out to see my ex roommate Nuyui..Damn she had lost weight..really made me feel that i should have taken my diet seriously by now..hehe..We took our breakfast me with my beef lasagna n chicken mcmuffin(about the diet thingy maybe later i guess) n her with her chicken rice..we chatted for a while updating our status and gladly i want to share with the world that our Nurul is no longer available to be taken.Congrats..U deserve to be happy sis.

After that we did a little shopping(more to her buying all of the stuffs n me watching trying to drag her away from the store actually) while waiting for her friend to come.

Shopping with Nurul was a terrifying experience especially for me who hadn't get my loan yet for this sem..She almost shocked my heart out when she easily bought a RM200 Armani Exchange cap for her beloved..What a lucky guy her beloved is..Not to mention the other gift she bought and her clothes..God when will i have that much money..Sorry sayang even if i got that much money still i won't buy you a Rm200 cap..Yup i'm a cheapskate.But if u are being super nice to me i might buy you something that almost quite look like it at Petaling Street..hehe..

Around 12 pm her friend called Hani arrived..At first she walked blindly through us and immediately the first question i blurted out to her is "ko rabun ek" haha..she look rather cute and funny that way.She's fun n easy going that made me comfortable spending my tyme with her..

Then we chose Sorcerer's apprentice as our movie pick..I was excited as i had never watch movie in KLCC before because it was always packed with people..If u like Harry Potter n disney kind of movie the movie is very nice indeed..Very relaxing and stress relieving.

Since i was craving for sushi king i asked them to accompany me there..Again piri2 chicken is my pick n i was glad when Hani n Nurul enjoyed it too..I mean i won't get this chance with Aizat..Anything that contains fish just doesn't go very well with his throat..The result of too much eating drowned fish when he was in his boarding school days he says..

One big breakfast i had..Taking revenge of yesterday's hunger..hehe..too bad i can't finish them all..At last the sausage mcmuffin that was suppose to be my breakfast turned out to be my dinner instead..haha

Nurul n Hani..seyes nurul dh kurus...

Hani n her vibrating cloth..haha..

me n Hani..banyak chemistry kot sbb sekejap je dh bleh masuk..

i had my fun..tribute to Hani n Nurul..U guyz rocks!! i hope u had fun in Melaka too darling..till later..ciaou..

My battery charger..

2010-07-18T20:54:00.002+08:00

I was completely overwhelm by fatigue this week as i juz came back from BTN n hadn't taken any rest yet for the whole week..My whole body is aching like hell...Though my body was screaming for rest still my heart is dying to see him again...Truly i missed him..We hadn't see each other for a long time..
A few days ago Al my ex roommate contacted me..She gave me the shockingest news ever.."Mashi...Abun dh kurus!!!"A sentence that i hated most..I've been striving so hard to keep him growing(since it was impossible to get taller it's fine by me to make him wider hehe..) that the news of him getting thinner crushed on me..
So with the little strength left i found my way to see him n the first thought occurred to me when i saw him was 'Al lupe nk pakai contack lens kot' followed by 'napelah baju y die pakai ni buruk sgt..teruk betul taste die'..hehe..but when i saw his smile damn i felt like i was floating..so sweet..I'm glad that he was still cute and adorable as the last tyme i saw him..
Seeing him again made me feel like i'm being recharged again..He made me happy in a way no one else could..We talked we laugh n all the stress seems to fade away..Thanx syg..right now i feel like i can conquer the world again..love u..

Dinner at Sushi King

2010-07-17T09:33:00.000+08:00

My first outing since i got admitted was to Mid Valley Kuala Lumpur..As the time is almost 8.30 and i was starving for food, me and Hadi started wandering around for a place to eat..something differrent he said..So we chose Sushi King..

I think the food there is quite nice..I mean it's foreign to the tongue but mouthwatering indeed..

This is my rice with piri piri chicken set..It contains a bowl of rice(although the rice is in small portion but it was very filling as it contains lots of starch that made the texture soft and sticky), some egg pudding thingy(i don't remember waht it was called sorry) that taste like mushroom soup(got chicken,crab n mushroom in it),seaweed soup(which at first i can't even stomach it but after a while i found that it was rather good) and of course piri piri chicken that taste really good..it was deep fried chickens that has soft texture n rich in sauce..

This one is Adie's with beef yakiniku rice set..it has the same thing as mine apart from the beef yakiniku..his set is also very nice as the beef is soft n rich in flavour.

piri piri chicken

beef yakiniku

this one i can't remember what it was called but it contains some deep fried chicken with sauce and mayonnaise.

this sushi is my favorite..it was a must for me everytime i go to sushi king..California maki.

i guess the price was worth it as we went out from there with a full stomach and fun dining experience..with all those free hot green tea refill..hehe..

ps:thanx Adiey for being such a sport..

a story of one red rose..

2010-06-29T20:35:00.003+08:00

Today i can't stop smiling...

all my life i think that flower is never an appropriate gift..

i mean yes they are usually very beautiful n have nice smells..

but they can't be kept for long..after a while they will die..

i don't think i would like to receive a gift that dies..

until today..

until him...

once i got in the car looking at him this morning he shocked me with a rose in his hand..

i was speechless..well if u know my guy,my guy is definitely not a romantic type..

he is insensitive,very frank with his words that sometimes the words stung and quite harsh sometimes..

but

he was also the best thing that ever happened to me in so many ways..

and i'm happy for his gift..

especially today when i was lately constantly in a bad mood..

n often treated him badly itching for a fight..

still he rewarded me with gallantry..

for some people a rose might means nothing..

but for me that particular rose he gave me is everything..

thanx syg..

for everything that u have done for me..

n for being here by my side..

i love mohd aizat baharin very much..

Hello Kitty?

2010-06-11T02:32:00.001+08:00

Evil hello kitty after being 'operated' by my students..

They surely did have a lot of spare tyme..

if only they put more effort in studying..

gone was the suppose-to-be-a-very-cute hello kitty..

~sigh~

A trip to Lanchang..

2010-06-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

Who knows a little town in Pahang could be very much entertaining..Well i don't..not until i go there n found out by my own..

Our first visit once we arrive in Lanchang was Deerland..With Rm6 per entry i can tell u that it was more than worth it..We can interact with the animals there as long as we want..We could feed them, touch them, hug them n even play with them..But only for those who has guts..In my case let us juz say my girl mates prefer human being better..hehe..

These were only some of the deer there..u can see hadi was feeding them..It was scary at first as the deers were all approaching u at the same time trying to get to the food but after a few moment u'll get the hang of it..it was actually fun..

I'm the only one who has the guts n seem to be excited enough playing and touching the snake..

Me and Aina with the bear while hanif n hadi only watched from far..chicken..

After deerland we went straight to Hadi's house as our stomach was crying to be filled..Her mom's cook was just superb..His mom's gulai lemak cili api was unbeatable..Not to mention how i dream to have a village like his..It was so peaceful,real live kampung view surrounded by fruit tree..What a nice way for my children to play around don't u think?

Zalila and Aina as the Hadi'e house veranda's models...

Me at Kebun Salak..Just behind his house..

My first time seeing n eating salak fruit fresh from the tree..it was sweet n very nice..

After Zohor we went to Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary..We won't have to pay for any activities here..What we need is just an online booking before coming..Sort of informing the host that we want to visit their place..

Me,Bariah n Aina riding the elephant..At first it was a little scary as we were high above the ground and the elephant's back bones were moving while it was walking that made us feel like were a about to thrown away..But after u quite use to it,it is quite thrilling..definitely a must try experience..

Don't be fool by our smiles..The place stinks..

Bathing with elephant activity..First they let u ride on the elephant then the elephant fall bringing u in the water..It was fun..All the water splashing around..u could also help in bathing the elephant..

us at the river side..

Overall the trip was exciting..We were exhausted but the trip was definitely worth it..can't wait for the next trip..any ideas guys??

The truth...

2010-06-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

yup we are definately fat..tgk jela kaki ni..dh mcm gajah pn..so no more delusions..we should start dieting n exercising right now..no more late night snacking n fast food..

who are we kidding at?this is us..

-sigh-

i wish we were more determine in losing weight after this..

DEMOK!!

One satisfying journey..

2010-06-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

The truth is i'm a little sceptic about how snacks can fill an empty stomach. i mean they were definately good to munch but they didn't satisfy hunger especially if one is out without having a breakfast..Since Rice Crisp by Mr potato is made of rice i guess it's suppose to be more filling than other type of snacks..So i made a little experiment of my own..

I planned a 2 hours trip to Kuala Gandah Lanchang with my friends..Since i was in charge of the breakfast i brought 2 tins of Rice Crisp Mr Potato with us..I knew it was a little cruel on my part..i was suppose to bring more of filling type of food but hey when is the righter time to do the the experiment??hehe..

U can see her piss-off-of-having-to-eat-snacks-for-breakfast-while-she-is-suppose-to-be-on-diet kind of expression..If only looks can kill..I do take a huge risk with my experiment..

but after a while...

"erm this thing is good..satisfying too..n since it's 20% less fat n contains no cholestrol n trans fat free i guess it was actually ok for my diet.."she says after munching a few pieces n keep munching..

We just can't stop munching Rice Crisp by Mr Potato..They were just too good..

Big satisfying smile on them after snacking on Mr potato Rice Crisp..

Once we arrive at our destination..We were no longer hungry thanx to Rice Crisp..little Aina didn't even want to let it go..

I stole the tin from Aina..I mean me too have the right to pose with Rice Crisp Mr Potato since it was my idea to bring them along with us..Right?

Rice Crisp by Mr Potato was genuinely satisfying..I mean it can fill us in the longer journey without having to stop in some RnR to take our breakfast..

The taste will linger in ur mouth after the first byte and without knowing u keep munching on so that the taste won't go away..

i do still remember the disappointment when they were actually finish..not even a single crisp left by us.

u can keep munching on without having to feel any guilt for ur diet too..what an extra..

Rice Crisp Mr Potato is definitely a must for every journey..What else is a better way to fill ur long tiring journey than munching off fabulicious,satisfying,20% less fat,cholestrol and trans fat free, Rice Crisp Mr Potato..

Available in 4 different uniquely flavour..Hurry and grab one now..

I'm blue..

2010-06-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

When i feel like talking,no one's there to talk to..

But when i don't feel like talking suddenly a lot of people expect me to talk about everything..

When i feel like going out,no one's there to accompany me..

But when i don't feel like going out i got invitations to all sort of events..

n right now i'm quite tired of waiting for people..

don't feel like mingling n don't feel like socializing..

no offends k?i juz want to treasure my moment of being alone..

sometimes alone is not a bad thing..

once i'm ready i'll go out again..

maybe soon or maybe later..i don't know..

don't wait for me to enjoy urselves..

coz really i'm enjoying my blue state right now..

ciao.

Kehidupan yang asing..

2010-06-01T00:42:00.001+08:00

Ari ni aku nk citer pasal beberapa orang student aku...

Student yang pertama aku nk cerita bernama Aiman...Kelas volunteer yang aku ajar tu buat kat umah dia..bukan sbb umah dia besar dan selesa tapi sbb kesungguhan ibu bapanya yang sudi menyediakan ruang dalam rumah kecil mereka hanya untuk melihat anak mereka belajar membuatkan aku memilih rumah itu..Rumahnya dikelilingi semak samun yang biasanya menjadi port tempat budak2 melepak menghisap rokok dan gam yang juga merupakan kawan2nya....kadang2 takut jugakla aku nk ngajar kat situ..tp setakat ni bdk2 tu semua baik lagi dengan aku..hmm berbalik pada Aiman..Aiman ni budak yang sgt sweet..yes dia merokok n yes dia dicop budak nakal disekolahnya tapi bila dirumahnya dia adalah anak yang patuh..apa jua yang diminta ibunya akan dituruti..tutur kata juga lembut dan sopan..berbeza bila dengan kawan semua perkataan yang mencarut tu dia guna..ibunya cik pah adalah seorang yang tidak cukup sifatnya..dia tidak mempunyai tangan kiri..Selalu aku terharu apabila ibunya ingin menghidangkan makanan,nmpak sahaja ibunya cuba mengangkat dulang,aiman terus bingkas bangun menolongnya tanpa perlu disuruh..perbualan ku dengannya semalam amat menyentuh hatiku..

aku:man,teacher nk tanya sikit bleh x?aiman join ke kawan2 man tu hisap gam?

aiman:xla teacher..xnk saya..nnti jadi bengap..paling teruk gila..sape nk jaga mak saya nnti?lgpun syg xnk bg orang alasan untuk kutuk mak saya lagi..

xsangka aiman yang masih muda tu pun sudah bleh belajar erti tanggungjawab..terharu gila aku dengar jawapan dia..

student yang kedua bernama fizi..dia ni senyap je dalam kelas aku..aku tanya soalan biasanya dia akan cakap xtau smbil tersenyum..kadang2 sakit ati jugak aku dibuatnya..tp dia mmg rajin senyum..tadi sedang aku tunggu students aku menyelesaikan latihan tiba2 cik pah ibu aiman membuka cerita tentang fizi..fizi sblum ini adalah anak tunggal..ibu bapanya telah bercerai dan sewaktu bercerai dulu fizi tinggal di rumah cik pah selama 2 minggu kerana tiada yang mempedulikannya..Kini ibunya telah berkahwin lain dan dia tinggal bersama ibu,ayah tiri dan adik beradik tirinya..yang sedihnya pasal fizi ni ayah tirinya agak memulaukannya..contohnya apabila ayah tiri,ibunya dan adik beradik tirinya yang lain keluar berjalan2 dia akan ditinggalkan di rumah dan selalu ditinggalkan kelaparan..akhirnya dia ke rumah cik pah untuk makan..cik pah ckp ibu fizi ni mmg xpeduli langsung pun pasal dia..ayahnya lagi teruk langsung xdengar berita smpai sekrang..paling sedih ialah fizi terpaksa berjalan kaki ke sekolah setiap hari ditengah panas terik yang agak jauh..padahal ayah tirinya ada membeli basikal yang disimpan di dalam rumah mereka..bila fizi mintak izin nk guna basikal tu untuk kesekolah ayah tirinya xbg atas alasan takut hilang.'bongok betullla..kalau takut ilang nk simpan usah beli..tgk je yang ada kat kedai tu..orang xde ati perut mmg mcm tu..taik idung masin..kalau aku ni berduit mau aku belikan basikal untuk si fizi ni.."cerita cik pah lagi dengan penuh emosi..tp aku pun agak rasala yang parent dia agak xberhati perut..bayangkan selalu kot bila aku tgh mengajar n fizi tgh belajar tiba2 mak dia suruh balik jaga adik sbb nk pegi kedaila n paling teruk suruh basuh kain n jemur baju padahal mende tu bukan xleh tunggu kot..patutla student aku yang sorg ni itam legam n kurus kering..selalu berjemur untuk kesekolah..n kadang2 bila ujan dia kesekolah menggunakan payung yang ada sbelah je..sblah lagi tinggal rangka..marah betul aku pada parent dia bila dengar cite lagi..i mean bukan xde kete..apa salahnya antar jap anak gi sekolah pagi tu sbelum gi keje..n kalau xnk antar pn xkan la xmmpu nk beli payung untuk anak kot..pegi jalan2 tiap2 minggu bleh palk..angin aku dibuatnya..

student yang ketiga iwan namanya..ya allah bising nya tuhan jela yang tau..mulut xberhenti2 becakap..n dialah yang paling teruk dibantai n di marah aku dalam kelas tu..aiman ckp dia ni kaki gaduh..pernah sekali dia bertumbuk ngan cikgu..tapi aku xnmpak pun gaya dia mcm tu..satu pasal dia ialah dia ni susah sgt nk faham n nk igt ape yang aku ajar..dh pelbagai2 taktik aku guna tapi semuanya xberkesan..kalau sejam setengah aku ajar org lain dh boleh buat smpai soalan 20 die baru faham 5...cik pah kata maybe sbb dia hisap gam..ntah aku pun xtau..smpai satu hari aku hilang sabar aku lempar buku dia keluar bila aku nmpak dia main2..aku ckp xnk belajar keluar..xpayah buang masa aku...pastu satu kelas diam sbb muka dia merah tahan marah kot..aku pun cuak tapi buat muka cool je..pastu dia pun keluar..dia ambik buku pastu dia masuk balik..aku pun biar jela...n ajar mcm biasa..esoknya bila aku dh bleh gelak2 ngan dia mcm biasa aku tanya dia..

aku:iwan,semalam teacher marah iwan nape xmarah balik?xpun nape xkeluar terus?aiman ckp iwan baran..

iwan:mmg sy marah teacher..tp sbb sy igt teacher baik ngan sy sy pun xjadi marah..

aku:baik?teacher rasa iwanla yang paling teruk teacher marah n bantai dalam kelas ni..baik apenye..

iwan:sbb teacher xgive up ngan sy..teacher marah.teacher pukul tapi sy bengap mcm mane pun teacher still ulang balik banyak2 kali smpai sy faham..org len xpenah mcm tu dgn iwan..sume give up..

sikit lagi air mata aku nk menitis dengar..terharu gile kot..aku rasa aku layan dia biasa je mcm student len..sedih pikir org selalu give up ngan dia pun ada..

erm tula sikit sebanyak citer pasal student aku yang aku nk kongsi..bukan ape bila aku pikir2 balik aku rasa aku sgt bertuah...aku dapat belajar dalam keadaan yang selesa..ibu bapa aku sgt menyayangi aku n family aku xpernah give up ngan aku..bagi aku kehidupan mereka cukup asing bagi aku..aku cuba bayangkan sekiranya aku di tempat mereka..aku xrasa aku boleh jadi seperti diri aku skrg..

smpai sini jela aku nk tulis..dh ngantuk..gudnyte..till next post..

ps:aku rasa ada ayat aku yang skema gile..mcm novel pun ade..argh!!pedulikan..janji ceritanya smpai..

Special entry for mama..

2010-05-29T02:15:00.000+08:00

today is 29th may.meaning that ur birthday had juz ended...i know there's absolutely hundred percently slim chance that u'll find my blog(i do kept praying that u won't find this blog hehe) yet to read about it still i think u r more than deserve an entry that is made specially about u..
what should i say about u?
hmm...let me think..let me think..
okay i got it!!
we fought a lot..yes we do juz admit it..we couldn't agree on the simplest thing..i'm hotheaded n moody while u r sensitive and noisy(yup u babble quite a lot)..u always made wrong conclusion about me n i always think u r unrasional(though sometimes way later i'll always find u were always right)..
but....
u r always there for me..no matter what and when u r always there..even when u were disagree with me..even when i've hurt u,u r always there..whenever i was sick even juz if i got the tiniest flu u'll be worried sick about me..whenever i was hurt u'll be the one who cried for me..u r always trying to do ur best in giving me whatever i wanted..n i know deep inside in my heart that ur only wish is to see me happy..u r definately the world's best mother ever..the highest compliment in my heart is for u..only u..

and even though i'm not the world's best daughter i do love u very much..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA...
me too always want u to b happy...

sejak bile HOCHI dan OTOSAN jadi perkataan omputih??

2010-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm...memandangkan member ku dh sound asyik ckp omputih je dlm blog ni xpela tyme ni aku tulis dalam bm plak..ju post ini bukti betapa aku menghormati bebelan dirimu..hehe..tapi awal2 aku nk mntak maaf ayat bm aku berterabur n hancuss..sbb tu aku prefer nk ckp omputih..xdela kebengapan aku dlm bm nmpak sgt..

aku rasa sume org dh tau kot kakak aku baru bersalin(kalau xtau baca post y sebelumnya)..aku siap jadi tukang sambut tau..hebat x??aku pun dh set mind sepanjang 2 bulan kakak aku pantang ni xpela aku cuti duduk umah tolong tengokkan die n baby girl kami y comel tu..tp sbb terlalu banyak masa kosong aku pun setujulah dengan permintaan mama untuk jadi volunteer ajar anak2 orang susah english..

student aku xdela ramai sgt dalam 17 orang yang berbeza2 umurnya ada darjah satu, darjah 2,darjah 3,darjah 6,tingkatan 1 n tingkatan 2..tapi walaupun umurnya berbeza mereka ni ada satu persamaan..english diorg sgt teruk..boleh kata basically the word yang diorg tau guna hanyalah i dan you sahaja..so pada hari pertama ajar diorg aku pun nk test la sebanyak mana perkataan bahasa inggeris yang diorg tau..aku bg masa 10 minit untuk tulis perkataan ape2 pun dlm bahasa inggeris sebanyak mungkin...setelah 5 minit diorg semua dh berhenti menulis..

aku:nape dh berhenti??baru sikit je teacher tgk..xsampai 10 pun..

mereka:xtaula teacher..

aiman:teacher tgk kamus bleh x?

aku:ok bolehla..teacher bg lagi 10 minit..tp teacher nk kamu mesti igt ape yang kamu cari tu tau..jgn tulis maksud..igt je..

aku pun teruslah menunggu..

setelah siap mereka pun menghantar kertas..aku pun mula meng'scan jawapan mereka..

aku:izwan, hos ni ape?

izwan:alaa teacher hos pun xtau..hos tu rumahlah..hos..

aku menepuk dahi:house la izwan..H.O.U.S.E..

izwan:alaa cikgu ni tinggal u dengan e je..tu pun nk berkira ke?

ada aku pelekung budak ni karang..nasib anak org..

dan banyak lagi kesalahan ejaan antara mereka yang aku jumpe...antaranya:

ticer=teacher

cer=chair

tebel=table

ket=cat

pensel=pencil

irezer=erazer

sakit kepala aku tgk....huhu..

aku dah mula memicit dahi..tapi bila sampai kat kertas seorg budak bernama azli yang darjah 2 aku menjadi semakin confuse..perkataannya lgsung xmasuk akal..bunyi2 english pun xde..

mula2 elokla..

-car

-window

-bike

kemudian aku mula pening..

hotoki??-mende ape ni?

hochi??

otosan??bila smpai kat perkataan ni baru aku perasan bahawa perkataan yang pelik ini semuanya adalah perkataan jepun..

aku:ali,mana dapat perkataan ni??

azli:kamusla teacher..ckp bleh tgk kamus..

aku pun membelek kamusnya..ya allah patutla..kamus melayu-jepun-inggeris rupanya..

aku:@#$^%&*()*&&

T_T

My first experience in the labour room..

2010-05-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep yesterday and i have no appetite what so ever..Not to mention i am also in my period..These cost me to feel slightly unwell today..At 10 am this morning my sister went to the clinic for a check up and was immediately warded as she was already 5 cm wide open..My parents went to the clinic at noon and as i was unwell i didn't go with them..but around 1.30 pm my conscious hit me as i feel like i need to be there..So i got ready and drove myself to the clinic..Luckily we have an extra car in my house..
Once i were there i asked my abg wan's mother for the location of my sis n my mom..As she said my mother was in the labour room i went there in every intention juz to say "hey sis,how's it going now?" and get out as soon as i can(i'm fainthearted, i don't like seeing much blood n hate seeing people in pain)..As i got into the room the first thing i noticed was my sis writhing in pain n my brother in law standing beside her holding her hand to give her support..
"Who is this?"a nurse in guard asked when she saw me n only then did i noticed her..
"My sister.."I heard my sis answered weakly..
"R u married?"This time the question was aimed to me n i shook my head as answer..
"I don't care if u r married or not..We need as much support as we could..She is closed to having her baby..So can u stand by the other side of the bed n hold his leg to keep it from closing while she pushed?"
How could i say no??
God,there's so much blood..Seriously i really don't want to watch it so i try to avert my eyes but the longer i was there,it's impossible for me not to see it as i was situated at her leg n need to hold it tight..
I was so close to tears..Seeing her in so much pain n exhaustion made me feel very helpless..I also feel fainted as there was so much blood,n i was also very tired n don't have much energy as i haven't eaten anything since yesterday..Especially when the doctor had to cut her open..I cringed n kept my legs tight together watching it..
After seeming like forever i could see the baby's head coming out..N after one final strong push the baby came all the way out and let out a hearty cry..God it was magical..So i quickly grabbed my camera to take her first picture(the pic above) ever n the doctor seems to be sporting enough to hold her in position till i was done..
My little niece was so beautiful..She is a miracle..Though i was shaken from the experience i couldn't stop my tears from falling when i saw with my own eyes the first time she opened her eyes to the world..

n i how long for the moment to have mine..

Salahkah jika mukaku xcantik??

2010-05-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

Selama ni aku tau aku bukanlah seorang yang cantik sgt,biasa2 je tapi aku still rasa aku ni comel,menawan n best..Aku rasa Allah dah jadikan aku sebaik2nya n aku sgt bersyukur..Aku happy dengan sape diri aku n aku melangkah tanpa sedikit pun rasa malu..cuma baru2 ni selepas pulang dr umrah,kulit mukaku menjadi sensitif apabila terkena cahaya matahari yang terik..akibatnya mukaku menjadi kering dan bertompok2 merahnya..mula2 aku rasa biasa2 je tapi penghinaan demi penghinaan telah membuatkan ku rasa sangat xpuas hati..antaranya ialah:

Scene 1:
Abang wan:Adik,adik baru lepas bertumbuk dengan sape muka abis bengkak2?
Aku:@#$%^&&*

Scene 2:
Aku:D-die jom gi jalan..adik bosanlah..
Kakak:Kalau aku jadi ko aku malu nk kuar umah..

T_T

Scene 3:
Aku:Ayah,adik nk kuar umah..
Ayah:Kat dalam laci bilik mama tu ada purdah..
Aku:@#$%^&

Scene 4:
Aku:Mama,muka adik ni teruk sgt ke?
Mama:Tak...Nnti lepas dah taruk ubat xdela orang takut sangat nk tgk muka adik..

T_T

Scene 5:
Aku:Alaa dh xsempat nk main basikal..dh petang sgt..
Kakak:Nasib baikla..Nnti kesian budak2 tu lintang pukang lari bila nmpak ko xleh nk main...

Scene 6:
Aku:Abang muka syg teruk ke?
Aizat:Haah teruk..

huhu...sesungguhnya aku mempunyai sebuah family yang kejam...xpandai langsung nak menjaga hatiku ini yang sensitif..

tunggulah pabila diriku kembali jelita!!!

ps:jangan salah sangka..mukaku xdela teruk sgt..tp familyku mmg pantang dapat peluang untuk menghina..

Kl Bird Park

2010-05-04T14:25:00.000+08:00

With nowhere else to go we decided to go to Kl Bird Park as we were juz passing through near by there. The world largest free-flight walk-in aviary did sound pretty much interesting so we went in looking forward on seeing how special this park could be..I guess one thing i like about this park is that although we went there on the peak of the noon and the weather was hot still the park manage to give us shade from the intense heat of sunlight n provide a cool surrounding for the visitor there as the park was surrounded by trees..The park was big but not as big as we thought it would be..It was nice to walk around with birds surrounding u..We took about 1 hour n a half to complete our round..If u want to go here i guess u better bring good companies as without one u might find this park boring..For me being with him in the park was a lot of fun..We were laughing,trying to catch the bird flying around,teasing each other( my syg badan je besar tapi burung pun takut) n try to savor the moment with each other as much as we could)..For me Rm 20 ringgit per adult was worth it coz my experience there with him is priceless...

Our tags..

I jus didn't get it..The bird just don't want to be near me no matter how much i try to lure it..

Aizat with his bird post that i still couldn't catch of why he kept repeating this pose over n over again..

Stalking a peacock behind the bush..

See??He was doing the birdie thingy again..xpaham betulla..

..us..

until then..ciaou..

On the road to madinah..

2010-04-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

Arrival in jeddah airport..

A little tea break..it was freakishly cold..

us in our madinah suit..

in front of qiblatain mosque..wear the face cover due to the intensity of the sunlight although the weather was cold..look like thief but who cares..skin treatment is more important..hehe

On jabal Uhud..

Getting ready for ihram..That's y i'm in white..

Dates market..If u want to shop for dates and sweets u better come here rather than at the dates farm..

Jabal rahmah at the wuquf area..The location where prophet adam met his lover n wife hawa..very romantic don't u think..

Well that's a little bit of madinah..no pictures of nabawi mosque as camera was restricted there..but i do manage to take some pictures with my phone..i'm juz too lazy to transfer it..sorry guys..

Pakistan Adventure..

2010-04-23T15:16:00.002+08:00

There's some view that will juz take ur breath away..But mostly u'll be saddened by the poor state of the country..

In the hotel's garden..Juz showing off my new leather jacket..hehe

Pakistani bus..Very colourful,full of decorations and usually pack with people..U could even see people sit on the bus sometimes..

Beggars..They were juz everywhere..Little children,women carrying little babies,handicapped the city juz full of them..Whenever u stop they will swarm u around like bees to honey..If u handed one of them money 10 will come chasing u..Be careful with ur things..They were also very quick with their hands..At first i pity them but my taxi driver forbid us from giving them money as they were actually into some kind of conning business.. But really,even if they were into some kind of business how rich can they be looking at the state of people in their country..

Genie mosque..It actually has a longer name but we call it genie mosque bcoz it has no pillars in it..The mosque was build by marbles being arranged together..And the roof are made of mirror that made the whole mosque like an echoing cave..There's no need of microphone here..whatever u said in a little louder voice can be heard all through the mosque..very unique indeed..i kept trying to find an excuse to shout out calling people names so that my voice can be heard all through the mosque..hehe..

Me and the pakistani guards in front of Al-Jinnah's Tomb..(One of them even said i'm pretty...very charming i say u..)

Our group in front of Al-Jinnah Tomb.. Definitely the best group ever..

Leather shop..For those who are leather lovers this will feel right at home for u..The stuffs are very cheap and original too..u don't have to hesitate to burn them since they were pure leather..

Leather and fur coats..Too bad malaysia's hot or i'll grab one of this soft n beatiful fur with me(though i do think hunting animals for their furs barbaric..hehe)

So that's juz about it guys..If u love shopping,especially on leather n clothes pakistan is the perfect place if u don't mind the dusts n beggars..n be careful with the shop sellers they are professional cheats..Make sure u had sharpened ur bargain skills before coming here..Still for me Pakistan is fun n cheap too..2 days city tour only will cost u around rm40..A perfect deal i think..Wish i had more than two days to explore it..

Till next post..chiao.

Till the time comes..

2010-04-19T14:10:00.001+08:00

Days by days passed taking a little bit of things i could attach to..
And i'm no longer have the energy to fight it..
I'm too exhausted..
I'm letting go n let fate decides what's next onto me..
Pretending none of this ever happening..
Till the time comes..
Alone in the dark i'm waiting..

what should i do when goodbye finally comes?

2010-04-13T14:32:00.001+08:00

i had this friend of mine..we had our times together..sharing,caring,laughing n crying n we had been pretty closed to each other..she is on of my best friends.though we seems apart now but sometimes a true friend will always remain to be friend till the end of time..we changed stories..sometimes we can find lots of similarities between us..especially on boys..back then we used to have admirers n often together we sit n discuss on what to do about them..pretty funny when i think back about it..until form four she met her soulmate..also from our school..the boy...erm he was okay..pretty quite compare to her i think..but they seems happy and that was what actually matters..
high school ended n she further her study in morocco while the boy stays here in uia..still they were together till i got a shocking news finding out that they was finally engaged n going to get married by the end of this year..i was excited..they were going to be the first one in our batch who get married..
until today..i got another shocking news..unfortunately this one was not a happy one..the boy died in an accident while i was doing my umrah..i can't stop my tears from falling..she must be in great pain i can do nothing about it..
n it kept me thinking..
like her i'm too have someone i'm deeply in love now..we r very happy together n i felt like there's no one more right for me than him..if i got a genie wish on what my future husband will be like,i will only wish for him..he's already perfect for me..but as much as i love him and want him to be my soulmate forever what can stop god from taking him..we're just an insignificant being in this world who had no power against what he had assigned upon us..
imagining my life without him was unbearable..without him by my side i'll be completely soulless. they will be an aching emptiness inside me that seems to be impossible to fill. i'd already endure 16 days and it was hell.what if it was forever..no more anything from him..like reaching for a shadow u'll never be able to grip..n i can't even imagine how my friend could have endure all that..
what if one day it's my turn n there's nothing i can do to stop it?what should i do?
what should i do when goodbye finally comes??

dear god,please give us strength..give us strength to endure everything that u put us through..

aku dan kasut croc ku..

2010-03-22T22:47:00.002+08:00

hehe jumpe gak gambar kasut croc ku dalam internet..xpayah susah2 nk tangkap gmbar then upload.

darila kecik smpai ke beso aku ada satu habit di mana aku suka mengetest daya cengkaman kasut aku..kalau elok2 org buat tangga aku akan lalu dekat part yang licin2 n boleh menggelongsor untuk membuktikan kehebatan kasutku..kalau grip die kuat aku main panjat2 bukit..kalau licin aku buat shoe slide..hehe..sempena aku nk pegi umrah ni kakak aku pun belikan aku kasut crocs ni untuk dibuat pelasah kat sana..senang..selesa..kalis air..

nk dijadikan kisahnya ari sabtu ari tu aku kuar dating ngan y tersayang..tudung comel dah baju ala kebaya n skirt tp bila aku kuar rumah kasut crocs ku jugakla yang ku sentap..kakakku y kebetulan tgh mengendap boyfren aku kat tingkap sempat menjerit "wei ko nk dating xkan nk pakai kasut tu kot..xkena langsung.."aku pun dengan selambanya buat2 xdengar tersengih n terus menuju ke kereta berjumpa dgn y tersayang..berbunga2 rasa hati..

masa tengah jalan2 tu aku pun tanyela..

aku:kelakar x syg pakai kasut ni?

dia:nk cakap tipu ke nk cakap jujur?

oleh kerana aku seorang yang menghargai kejujuran aku pun of coursela mintak dia berkata jujur.

dia:haah kelakar..

cis xpandai langsung nk jaga hati..sekali sekala tipu yang dia jujur ape salahnya..

tp xpe..janji aku rasa comel..tu y penting..n aku pun tau dia rasa aku comel(berani dia xrasa mcm tu)..aku pun dengan perasaan yang perasan aku comel pun(pdhal nyesal xikut ckp kakak suruh salin kasut kat umah tadi) terusla bersiar2 dengan si dia merentasi kuantan parade n kompleks teruntum...

sepulangnya setelah lelah melalak kami dapati bahawa hujan turun rintik2...jalan agak basahla dan lantai agak licin..aku pun sbb dh habit agaknya tidakla turun mengikut tangga seperti kebanyakan orang normal dan berfikiran waras yang lain tapi aku turun di bahagian slide..bajet kasutku grip die kuatla..n malangnye

KEDEBUK!!!

seperti nangka wangi aku pun tergelincir terhentak ke bumi..oh betapa sakitnya!!tapi xpe aku cover2 bangun buat mcm xde ape padahal tuhan jela yang tau betapa malunya dan betapa sakitnya aku..dhla nmpak setompok basah kat belakang..nasibla sygku seorng yang gentleman tidak meninggalkan aku malu keseorangan..betapa aku syg pada dirinya..

aku:abg xmalu ke tgk syg jatuh tadi?

dia:buat ape nk malu bukan abg y jatuh(cis jawapan y sungguh xsensitif)..tp sbnrnye tadi mmg abg dh nk warning syg pun..tp xterkeluar..(hampeh tul)..

pastu die pun terus gelak sepanjang jalan..sesungguhnya boyfriendku bukan seorang y sensitif..tp melihat die gelak aku pun turut gelak sekali..n die baik sgt sbb sanggup jadi tukang cover blakang aku..

setibanya di rumah aku pun terus cerita kat kakak aku tntg insiden tersebut..sambill tergelak2 die pun ckp:

"saper suruh ko buat crocs cetak rompak mcm ori..xdengar lg ckp aku..aku ni kn berdaulat.."

aku:@#$%^&*@##

ps:aku masih menanggung sakitnya hingga hari ni..especially bile naik motor..huhuhuhu

Nilai seorang insan..

2010-03-18T02:25:00.000+08:00

disclaimer:i hope u r not mad aya..this entry is again about him..hehe..

Mungkin dia hanya pasir..Yang tidak punyai apa2 nilai..Tapi pasir inilah yang membahagiakan aku..
Mungkin dia tidak semahal dan semewah berlian..tapi bukan berlian yang aku dambakan hanya dia..
Namun aku yakin pasir juga bisa menjadi berlian di bwh tekanan kerna aku percaya dia boleh jadi apa sahaja yang dia inginkan..
Aku tidak punyai sebarang ilusi terhadap dirinya..Tidak pernah kubayangkan dia seperti putera raja ataupun romeo yang diidamkan oleh kebanyakan wanita..Bagiku dia adalah dia..Tiada yang lain sepertinya cuma dia..Dia insan biasa yang cukup istimewa bagiku dan kuharap hanya untukku..
Aku sedar akan kekurangan dirinya..Mungkin kini ku bahagia dengan dia dan mungkin esok tidak..Mungkin hari ni aku mempercayainya dan mungkin esok tidak..Aku tidak mengagungkan kebaikannya dan tidak juga aku membenci keburukannya..Tidak mengharapkan kata manisnya juga tidak menolak kritikannya..
kerana aku tau dia tidak sempurna..seperti aku..n aku sedia terima dirinya seadanya..baik buruknya..
bagaimana inginku pinta sesuatu yang lebih baik darinya?sedangkan dia cukup sempurna buat ku..

aku cuma syg dia..tidak dapat ku ramal apa y akan terjadi esok..tapi akan ku pastikan detik bersamanya bukan satu penyesalan..akan ku hargai hari ini kerana esok belum pasti..yang ada cuma harapan..semoga hubungan ini akan berkekalan...

-ilu-

Eating expenditure..

2010-03-16T12:49:00.002+08:00

I was quite hungry when we met..i haven't eaten anything yet and it was almost lunch hour..So the first thing that comes to mind when we arrived at the mall is looking for a place to eat..Since i'm the one who was hungry( he had just eaten his breakfast) the choice was mine..While we walked around surveying for a place to eat we met A&W..A&W is his favourite..Since the choice is mine i suggested that we looked somewhere else first so we continue our journey right to the A&W counter(so much for looking somewhere else..hehe)..

him with A&W float..I love the float..

it did made me wonder..sape yang lapar sebenarnya ni??

him with mango passion from starbuck..it was sweet n sour in the same time..not to mention freezing..i got a brain freeze by drinking it too fast..

he was waiting me buying bread at bread story.he refused my offer to buy him one as he was already too full and yet when i gave him a taste of the bread he scolded me for not buying him one as the bread was cheesy, soft and delicious that my mouth watered juz by remembering the taste...(padan muka jual mahal lagi)

big apple.. i love alien..i bought all of them that was on tray..

and after that we also go to a restaurant and ordered char kuey tiaw,kerang rebus n sotong celup tepung..xsempat nk ambil gambar dh makan dulu..hehe..he didn't want to eat them again he was too full but after i tricked him,he almost finished everything that was on the table..(i'm sorry syg for ruining ur diet..hehe)

that was how our eating expenditure goes..full of yummy food..lucky me he didn't mind my weight much(kan syg kan?)

A little side story..We picked Alice in Wonderland as our movie of the day as it was quite a fever now..As always,he was trying to please me by agreeing into that movie while i think Solomon Kane is much more to his type of movies.With it gore and violence...hehe..(my sayang could be quite psychotic sometimes)..For me the AIW was wonderful especially bcoz i read a lot of brithish aristocracy novel that i know how snobbish they can be.. It was all about what's proper n what's not n i could grab most of the hidden sarcasm towards them in this movie..While i was enjoying the movie i suddenly heard a cute and adorable sound beside me n found out that my sayang was already asleep..Awww how cute n how sorry i am for selfishly choosing a movie that i know will bore him to sleep..Sorry syg..I'm touched..Next tyme we'll pick a movie that u like k?

So long for now...I enjoy every second with him..

-ilu-

ps:Towards all the jeans stealer in UMP(in case u happen to read my blog) please don't be so stupid to wear the jeans u stole in UMP or Kuantan or Selangor for ur sake coz the owner might be pissed enough to do the unthinkable on u..consider this as a friendly advice.and quit stealing will u?

It's a little early but still....Happy birthday sayang..

2010-03-13T22:23:00.001+08:00

This is us..In rasamas...penuh meja ngan food sebenarnya..

Makan pun nk cover..

Comel x...I love black forest..

Suka buat muke..tetibe teringat plak die buat lebih kurang same expression last year..

Last year birthday celebration at Johny..Lebih kurang kan??Rambut je lain..

Me in the gardens..

us in the mirror

sayang in wonderland..

Some dessert for closure of our day..Oreo milkshake,chocolate blended n strawberry choc cake..yummy

More than anyone i know that his birthday is suppose to be on 28th but i don't care i juz want to be the first to celebrate it.. I was a little devastated actually not being able to celebrate his birthday on time but what to do i'll not be around in malaysia during that time..so here we went celebrating his upcoming birthday earlier than it's suppose to be..Still i have so much fun with him..It's a little wonder whether it was my birthday or him we were celebrating as he was the one who followed my wishes.. Juz being with him make me feel like i'm over the cloud..

Sayang happy birthday..

i know it's early and it's not actually how it should be..

but the rest of it,of us being together..

it's the fate destined on us n nothing feel righter than being with u..

Wishing that all ur wishes comes true...

Always live in The Almighty's blessing..

n hoping that we'll last happily ever after..

love u dear..

sweet 23.

Silence..

2010-03-11T14:37:00.000+08:00

I had once had this lullaby that put me to sleep..
now that the lullaby's gone sleeps seem to be alluding me..

I had once always reach for this sound..
The sound soothed me,calm me like nothing ever could..
And now the sounds seem so far away..
I couldn't reach it,couldn't find it..
And i'm lost..feeling lost without it..

My world now seems so quite...
Building the state of numbness inside..
And it kills me..
This silence...

My very own fairy godmother..

2010-03-11T14:28:00.000+08:00

Ever heard of Cinderella?If u don't, juz google the name and u will find out a bunch of stories of her..Well today is not about her..It's about her fairy godmother..When i read the stories or watch the movies about her i wonder if there's such thing as fairy godmother..A person who will just magically appear out of nowhere,helping us in the time of need..Well all of those fairy tail fantasy was a fantasy to me until yesterday i just realize that i actually have my own kind of fairy godmother..sort of..but my fairy godmother is a lil bit different from Cinderella's..The most obvious difference is that my fairy godmother is not a she but a he..He also don't have wings and magic wand with him.
His name is Taqwa but i use to call him Taqi since that is much easier to pronounce and he seems to like the nick i gave him..
In what way does he resembles a fairy godmother to me?
Well the stories start from long ago..We had known each other for almost 7 years..We didn't contact each other much but coincidentally when i was in trouble and there was no one else that i can rely on he will be there..There is this one time during my DQ year when i had to come back from kuala kubu baru to kuantan on urgent matters..The day was already about 8 night and when i reach pudu,the tickets were all sold out.Coincidentally my relatives nearby were all out of town n i was starting to be scared as i'm still new in kl and there's a lot of things could happen to a girl who travel alone like me in the middle of this city.. So i checked back my phone directory and suddenly his name pops out in my head..I called him hoping that he still didn't change his number since it was already about a year i didn't contact him n i was lucky he answered it and was willing to help..he asked me to wait in kl sentral while he went through kl looking for my ticket n fortunately for me he found it..
Another story is when i was working in Shah Alam about 3 years after that(meaning that i haven't contacted him apart from wishing happy birthday since then)..There's this one time when i want to go back to kuantan n found out that my purse was stolen..I was penniless without an ic n once again as i don't know who else to call,i called him..Again i was lucky as he was still working in kl and willing to help..He fetched me and brought me to the bus station and lend me some money for my travel..So does when i was having my gastric in the middle of the night,pale from the sickness that i can no longer bear,he came to my rental house and brought me to a doctor nearby..
And not to mention that he always magically called me when i was feeling like no one's there while we haven't even contacted each other before...And although talking to him was ot as wonderful and joyous like when i was talking with my sayang still he calms me..
There's this one day when we hang out together with his cousin's and his cousin's fiancee, his cousin ask him who am i to him and his answers touched me.."This is my little sister that i've been taking care of her since she was a kid..Although she seems so macho on the outside,but she always need to be protected and taking care off.."I never know that he had assumed me as his sister while i was always treated him no more than a mere ordinary friend..I seem so evil and selfish compare to him..

So here's to u big brother..I wish u happy and pray that u will be happily married to ur fiancee this year..Thanx for taking care of me all his while..

A fairy godmother and a brother?i guess i'm luckier than cinderella since i got both..

Sweet moment..

2010-03-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

I love you.
I love who you are.
I love who I am
when I'm with you.
I love what we are
when we're together
and what we
can be tomorrow.
I love you
for ignoring
my foolish side
and for seeing
the good in me
that others
never noticed.
I love you for
the warmth you
put in my heart
and for the beauty
you put in my soul.
I love you,
because you
make me happy
in a way that
nothing and no one
else can.
I love you,
because you're
my dearest.
And I just wanted
to remind you
just how much
I love you!

And a little side story..U see this pic below?This is the sakai picture of me focusing on trying to poke the coconut filling out as i really like to eat them..I hate this pic..Totally hate it and he got the whole bunch of it plus the videos of me torturing that coconut..Jahat..The whole story of the day is to never wear sakai's clothes when i go out with him coz even though he kept telling me that i'm pretty and don't really care what i wear when i'm out with him, he will try to take pictures without me noticing to show how 'cute' i am in my sakai attire..huhu..but still thanx syg for everything..I'm totally happy with u..Thanx for still saying i'm pretty although i'm not in my best looks..Thanx for juz simply accepting..Thanx sbb sudi layan karenah sayang walaupun demam2 n sakit2..

i love u sayang..i juz simply do..

Somethings to remind me..

2010-03-02T19:14:00.001+08:00

Kalau ade baby kan best..Especially y cute mcm ni..Waahhhh gatal...xbelajar mulala start nk menggatal..nak kawinla nk anakla sbb tu kene sambung blaja cepat2..tapi dh belajar pun mcm nnti xleh nk menggatal je..hehe..Bukan tu yang aku nk cakap sebenarnya..Tersimpang jauh jap..Aku just nk citer ckit je ape y dh aku belajar setakat ni..tapi sikit jela..setakat yang aku rajin nk tulis..Sedar xsedar dh 5 bulan aku idup berdikari..Jauh dari mak bapak n kawan2..Rindunyala tuhan saje yang tau..Dulu kalau nk makan pape call je mama bleh antarkan..Bosan pegi bilik member ajak kuar or lepak borak2..Alhamdulillah member aku ramai yang baik2 n rajin nk layan karenah aku yang ntah pape ni..Xde duit call ayah gelak sikit batuk sikit die dh paham dh esok masuk duit dalam bank..Senangnya la idup..Bila pikir balik dulu aku xpernah berusaha keras untuk dapatkan ape2..Anak manja mmg sesuai sangatla gelaran tu dengan aku..But everything change when i decided to take a break from my study 2 wander around finding what i really want in life..The first day i started my first work ever,jadi cikgu tadika xsampai setengah hari aku dh rasa mcm nk quit..Perghh seksa gile..Kena buli mcm akulah kuli pendatang tanpa izin dari indonesia(taula muka ada iras2 Agnes Monica)...Budak2 pulak baik ckit je dari hantu..Berubah terus persepsi aku dari seorang yang sangat suka budak2 kepada seorang yang suka budak gitu2 je..hehe..Tapi xtau dari mana datang kekuatan aku teruskan jugak..Padahal dhla susah gile lepas tu semua orang asyik goda aku suruh balik tapi xpe aku kan suka cari pasal n degil so aku teruskan jugak..Selepas seminggu aku dah mula faham rentak kerja dan budak2 aku dapati y kerja tu xdela teruk sangat(but seriously hanya orang y benar2 sabar je y mmpu tahan-kire sabar jugakla aku ni)..Budak2 tu pulak mencuit hati wpun nakalnya tuhan jela yang tau..Aku mula seronok kerja di situ..Dari aku seorang yang dulunya pandai masak gitu2(kecekapan maggi,telur n air) je aku jadi pandai masak biasa2(sup,masak kicap,masak merah,goreng berlada n xtra2 ckit2) je..Yela duduk umah sewa semua kena sendiri..xde lagi basuh2 baju guna mesin ni..Tangan aku y dulunya sehalus baby kini aku rasa sabut kelapa pun boleh menang ngan aku..Antara apa yang aku belajar di tadika tu ialah if u think ABC are easy,try to teach them to a GROUP of 4 years old..Then u'll know how easy they actually are..Hehe..Ada teknik rupanya untuk berhadapan dengan budak2 bukan sekadar pakai redah je..Kalau pada mulanya aku terjerit terlolong pun diorang boleh buat bodoh je ngan aku tapi lepas 3-4 minggu kat situ aku mmpu dengan sekali kerling je boleh buat diorang diam..Terasa diri ini agak hebat..hehe..Start cuti sekolah bulan 12 tahun lepas aku dapat offer kerja ngan 3i Group..Company ni buat mcm2..Ada training and consultancyla,cafe,learning centre,pusat perawatan islam n travel agency..Biasanya aku kerja kat bahagian cafe ngan travel agency..Bila aku kerja ngan 3i ni mende yang aku rasa aku paling improve sekali ialah skill aku bawak motor..hahahaha..Mana xnya first week aku kat cni,aku punya rakan sekerja dh bg aku pinjam lc 135 die suruh gi ofis sendiri..Redah KL tu..Aku dulu bandar kuantan pun xpernah jejak ngan motor..Sepanjang2 jalan tu aku menggigil..Siap kene saman lagi tu sbb x ikut laluan motor..Pastu sesat hampir 2 jam atas motor dalam hujan sbb xtau jalan..Baru first week..Tapi lama2 jadi biasa..Sekarang ni bawak motor celah2 jalan jam ataupun highway xjadi hal dah..Lepas tu aku banyak belajar how to start a business,dealing with customer..bos aku ni pulak jenis baik..wpun gaji xbanyak tapi dia bagi aku try buat mcm2 mende..deal dengan airlines,customer..client..Lama2 dari tergugup2 cakap takut boleh jadi smooth je..Bila dh keje jugak aku jumpe mcm2 jenis orang..Kadang2 yang nmpak baik mengalahkan tok imam rupanya perangai mcm setan..ada yang nmpak sengal,terjal n rupa mcm orang pecah rumah je tapi baik sangat...dulu aku selalu rasa orang yang xberpendidikan ni biasalah iq rendah so diorg punya manners pun very bad mcm pelayan2 kedai2 kasut atau promoter2 yang kerek tu tp rupenya ade jugak orang yang dh ada phd pun manners die lg teruk..arrogant..snobbish..have no respect towards other..mcm @#$%^ je..tp nk buat mcm mane..This is life..It can be very beautiful on one side n very terrible on the other side..It only depends on how we want to see it..I'm lucky i met both side n the experience made me be more cautious in shaping the future me..I learn what to do n what not to do in the future..Hey i don't say that my experience now is enough,its just that my experience now thought me that i still have much to learn in my road to be a successful person..But now i'm really thankful to my family,my sayang n my friends for always supporting me n be there for me..xsabar rasanya nk start belajar balik with this new me..rasanya mcm dh panjang sangatla pulak..sampai sini je..ciaou..

ps:mule2 ingat nk tulis dalam bahasa melayu je..tp terselit gak perkataan2 penjajah omputih ni..i'm sorry..still aku tetap cinta malaysia..hehe

When i fall in love..

2010-02-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

It had been a long time since i wrote in this blog..Just couldn't find the time n mood to do so..The thing is I'm in love..N being in love made me feel like wanting to speak only about him all the time..N then aya would be jealous won't u aya(supposely this blog is dedicated to her hehe)..But today is an exception..Let this be an introduction to the guy i'm in love with..From the moment i met him i know that he means trouble..He is entirely different from the people in my world..I knew that he was no romeo nor aladdin type of a guy..He is my Shrek(i didn't mean the looks n the smell,so syg please don't get offended hehe)..He is tough on the outside,seldom get musyi2 saying from him,easily misjudge by people,sometimes people are scared with him(inluding me) yet i feel loved like Fiona(also not by the look n smell..i don't bath in mud..)..His actions spoke louder than any word in the world n he makes me happy..It's a bliss to have someone who care n love me like he did..I know he is not perfect, more than anyone i know most of his faults but he is perfect for me in every way...The best thing about him is i never felt alone since i met him..He went through thick n thin with me n how i'm grateful to Allah's from him..So guys please do pray me luck n happiness with him...I want to write more(i can write about him for pages)but i'm too sleepy to do so..So long for now..Good nyte...

Sanctuary

2010-01-26T11:54:00.001+08:00

I wrote this especially to u iseult n do know that i miss u too..

I'm sorry i didn't have time for my blog lately..I was busy chasing life..
I got lots of positive comments lately..They said i look happier and more cheerful than before..Well i actually do feel so..
I don't stay at the same place, do different jobs everyday, working almost 27 hour a day, having only slightest bit of rest, yet I'm happy..I feel alive..I feel like a kid who was so eager to learn everything that i can reach to.
But the real reason I'm happy is because i have my sanctuary..When I'm exhausted that i feel like my feet couldn't carry me anymore i close my eyes and think about my sanctuary n instantly i got my strength back..Or whenever i was with my sanctuary it was like a boost to my energy so that i can do more with myself..

And to my family n friends..U are my sanctuary..Something that i can hold dear n look back knowing that u will be there..That u'll give me ur support all through the way..With u i can be really genuinely happy..

N i just couldn't thank u enough..Juz for simply being there..

Without all of u..I'm no more worthy than a peck of dust.

Love u all..

Happy belated bestday Adi..

2010-01-15T19:45:00.003+08:00

Wish u a happy year,full with Allah's blessing..

Thanx for making me laugh and smile..

Thanx for being there..

Happy bestday..

What I've learned..

2009-12-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

I learned...

That I can't force a person to love me,

I can only do somethings for the one i love..

I learned,

That i'll be treated exactly like i treat other people,

Giving is always better than receiving..

I learned..

That i need years to build trust,

It it only take seconds to destroy it..

I learned..

That my best friends are always with me,

We do a lot of best things together,

And we have lots of best times together..

I learned..

That the one who I consider the villain in my life,

Is the one who often inspire me n give me guts,

The one who show me my weakness n dare me to be a better person..

I learned..

Friendships that are connected by heart,

Although are separated by distance,

Will only bloom more beautifully by time..

I learned..

That if a person didn't shower me with his attention as i wanted,

Doesn't mean that he doesn't love and care for me,

He just has his own way in loving me..

I learned..

That as wonderful as a person is,

He will has mistakes,

so i must always be ready to forgive..

I learned..

That i need to learn how to forgive my self and other people,

so that i won't be living in guilt,

so that i'll be free from negativity inside me..

I learned..

That two person can see a same thing,

But have different opinions about it..

I learned..

That people around me can influenced me,

But I need to be responsible in decisions that i made..

I learned..

That it doesn't matter what i have,

But what does matter is who i am inside..

I learned..

I need to choose,

whether i want to control my attitude and emotions,

or i let my attitude and emotions control me..

I learned..

That i have right to be angry,

but it is not an excuse for hatred and rudeness..

I learned..

That failure doesn't mean the end,

It means starting over..

I learned..

If i love someone,

Love him wholeheartedly,

Cause even if he is not for me,

At least i won't have any regrets on the day after..

I learned..

That i need to prioritized those i love before me,

Because they are my everything,

Make others happy although i am actually in pain,

Love is wanting to make your love one happy.

I learned..

That if we repay evil with kindness,

Allah has his own ways in repaying back our kindness to us..

I learned..

Even in my greatest despair,

When i was alone and feel lonelier than ever,

I was never alone,

Allah is always with me and he has great plans for me..

Hardship is not the sign that he hates me,

But it is a way to bring me closer to Him.

This is what i've learned..

This is me..

I rather be hated for who i am than be accepted for who i'm not..

Q& A sessions..

2009-12-18T13:12:00.004+08:00

So here's a general answers to all of the questions that i've been asked lately..
Where am I and what i've been doing lately?Why didn't i post anything in my blog anymore?
-I've finished my two month in Annizah's kindergarten as agreed with the owner(it was one sad parting.. I love the kids..They were just heart-warming)-didn't post about it cause i left my cam's cabel at kuantan so i can't upload the pictures..
-i started working with 3I group(will explain about it in later post) on 11th dec..
-I am a PA to Datin Wan Syamsiah Wan Mohd(i called her Mak Long.She is not related to me but it's just that everyone i know called her so) who is going to open a travel agency n a green cafe which are going to start operating this January..So my schedule is quite pack.
-Right now i'm in our office in Permaisuri business centre,Kuala Lumpur still trying to sort things out before our opening ceremony..
-I stay in between two places now(one is Mak Long's house in Bandar Tun Razak n the other one is the one that is rented for me in SS2 PJ)
-I just came back from our 5 days Pantai Timur tour(We went to most of the tourist centre in the east coast n it was quite splendid actually..The east coast of Malaysia is just beautiful-again i still can't post about the tour as i can't upload the pictures..)
Have i quitted studying??
No i'm not...I'm a student till the end of my life..It's just that i still trying to figure myself out..To those who understand,thank u n to those who don't just back off will ya?
How am i doing right now?
I'm doing great actually..Trust me i'm not bluffing..I learned lots of things,meets lots of different people,went to lots of different places n experienced lots of exciting things..Right now i'm living to the fullest..It's just that i'm too busy to upload it all in my tiny blog.
Have i gone mad?
I probably am..So what??

So i think i've summed them up quite splendidly..hehe..
To those who love me thank u..u guys are the best..
Happy new year everybody...
xoxoxoxox

One rainy sunday..

2009-12-11T08:14:00.004+08:00

I was living in the east coast of Malaysia..Rain is no longer an obstacle to anything..No matter how hard the rain is,the activity will go on..We surely didn't mind to be a little wet.After all this kind of day is what exactly umbrellas are made for..
On last rainy sunday was my abang wan reception..His house was actually one of the few house in his area that didn't get flooded.Lucky us our convoy was all of MPVs so the flood didn't stop us in the way..

It's a simple event n i didn't take lots of pictures due to the rain(didn't want my camera to get wet).We all came in black not because of we were mourning or anything it's just that black made the rain drops and the wetness of our clothes less visible n we do look kind off cool in them..That little boy beside me is my brother Ijat..He was adopted by my dad since his late father was my father's best friend..he sometimes join us on our holidays n for this school holiday he's staying with us since my sister is home waiting to be post as a teacher this January.

To entertain Ijat after the reception we went to the Dinotrek..He was dying to go there so did my dad(he always love this kind of odd thingy) so we did a little family tour there..(too bad my sis and abg wan couldn't join us though the wanted to go too as they can't possibly left their own reception)

Wrong emotions..Should be a little scared of the T-rex..It does look n sound real though..

Ayah n mama helping Ijat with his puzzles..

Ayah looked like he was enjoying himself with the game as mama was cheering him off..They surely can be kids sometimes..

Me and mama n a big dinosour behind us..If the dinosour was big,how come we seem to be completely blocking it?Who was bigger actually?(i'm NOT going to let this thought bug me..)

He kept blaming the computer for telling him he was wrong when he was actualy right..Sian adik akak ni..

Me and Ijat and the mechanical dinosour behind us..We can programmed it to move it's head,eyes n body according our wish..Kind off cool actually..

Ijat n his little souvenir..(His pic seems dull n boring cause he was afraid to smile as we kept teasing him of his rotten teeth..hehe)

my knight in shining armour..

2009-11-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

Adela satu hari tu sedang2 aku kemas rak tetibe seekor cicak jatuh depan aku..Aku pun ape lagi "Waaa cicak!!!' n terus melompat jauh dr tempat tu..Musuh ketat aku tu selain dr Mr L n Cik Ti..Xsangka aksi spontan tu dilihat oleh Azri,murid kelasku yang sangat manja dengan aku.Pantang jumpa mesti aku dipeluknya..
"Teacher,teacher nape teacher jerit?Teacher takut cicak ye?"
"Haah..dulu ade cicak pernah masuk dlm baju(aku mmg anti dengan binatang yang pervert ni..lagi satu mr L pernah panjat kaki aku)..So teacher xsuke."(mmg prinsip aku jujur dengan budak2..aku pantang tul dengan org y suke tipu budak ni..kesian budak tu..nnti dh besar diorg jadi susah nk caye ngan org)
"ooo mcm tu ye teacher.."pastu die pun terus lari pegi main dengan kawan2 die..

3 hari selepasnya..
azri:teacher..teacher..azri ade gift untuk teacher..
aku:yeke?azri nk bg ape pulak kali ni?(die mmg selalu bg aku gift..bunga y die petikla,gula2, kapal terbang kertas..budak ni mmg sweet)
azri:y ni teacher kene ikut azri..jom kite gi playground..
dengan penuh keheranan aku pun ikutla..tibe di playground aku tgk kat pagar tu dikerumuni budak2..
ya allah kat pagar tu tergantungla seekor cicak mati..
azri:teacher nila hadiah azri untuk teacher..lepas ni mesti cicak2 lain xberani kacau teacher dh..teacher simpan ye..(dan die pun terus pergi meninggalkan aku bersama cicak yang mati tu join kawan2 y sedang bermain)
aku:#$^%@&^%

Heaven's garden..

2009-11-08T20:26:00.004+08:00

Kids are brats..They are annoyying n noisy n sometimes u will wonder whether they are the devil's weapon to outcome u..These are facts..It is proven..if u don't believe me try to lock urself with at least ten of children under 6 years old for a day..Then u tell me that my fact is just another bullshit made by unreasonable mind of people who had been driven nuts by the kids(i might be one of those u know)..

If i feel like that why did i insist to stay here n looking forward on meeting them every single day?

Well it's because though they are undeniably all of the above they are also the sweetest things on earth..They are like chocolate though it's a little bit bitter, it's sweet,calming n is able to make u happy(all the that endorphins it triggers) if the migrane didn't come to u first hehe...
They made my day here..On the first day i came here,i wonder y did the principle called this place heaven's garden..It was seriously looked more to hell with little devils scattering around..But day by day in a little corner of my heart i admitted that this place is true to the name.This place is full of laughter n innocent cute little beings..U can't help but smiling around them with all the cheerful vibe spreading in the air..I also get a lot of love here..I got hugs n kisses everywhere i go..They screamed my name n is eager for my attention..They surely do know how to get into people's heart..

There's also few things i learned from them on how to be as cheerful as they are..
1-laugh when u r happy cry when u r sad
2-forgive n forget the mistakes people made to u
3-tell other people problem inside u..don't keep it in ur heart..eg:"teacher, ainul dengan zakiah kan tadi kan die xnk kawan saye..."
4-exercising..move a lot..it helps in producing more endorphins to make u happy(kids are just restless)
5-rest when u r tired(they can sleep almost anywhere)

I think enough for now..will try to put more later..ciaou.

Like a bird..

2009-10-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

“Have you lost ur mind??”

This last few weeks I had been asked this question a lot..Well, am I? I have no answer to that. It depends on what people think of me..If they think I’m crazy let it be.. maybe I am n maybe I’m not..honestly I don’t give a damn..

If what I did categorized me as crazy I rather be called crazy my entire life..

This ‘craziness’ of mine set me free.. Free from what?? It’s for me to know n for u to find out..if u can..hehe..

Right now I feel like I’ve been given a pair of wings..It’s hard to learn how to fly, it’s a new thing n people normally walk..they don’t use wings to fly.. But I want to learn to..I want to do it although lots of people say I can’t.I know what I’m doing is different from what people normally did(well not every people just those I usually mix with) n lots of people can’t quite accept it but what I’m trying to tell here is that I’m happy..I simply am..I’m happy with my choice.I feel me again..Not trying to be like a certain her or a certain him anymore..I don’t say it was an easy choice..I need to start new again.. I fell a lot n I know I’m going to fall a lot more if I want to succeed..But it’s nice to feel like u have the control of ur life not just following the path I suppose to follow like other NORMAL people..told u in my fs normalcy scares me..N this adventure I took thrilled me..What life without excitement..Not that kind of wasting money, laughing on stupid jokes, hanging out uselessly type of excitement..It was life’s worth of excitement. It’s fun to be different. I know this path I’ve taken is a hard one..If anything I’m not stupid..But like miley cyrus said in her movie..Life’s a climb.But the view is great..I’m going to enjoy the view as much as I can..

Right now I’m thankful..I can’t tell how much I thank Allah..

I’m thankful to Him for giving me parents like mine.. Though I almost gave them heart attack they still support me n try to understand..I know this is hard on them but still they stick with me n love me n accept me as difficult as it is..

I’m thankful to Him for giving me a sister like mine..Though she was disagree she back me up so that I’m happy..

I’m thankful to him for my giving me my sayang..I thought he would run away as he found out how crazy I could be yet he stick with me through my tears n laugh..From beginning to the end..He calmed me n my parents though he himself couldn’t quite accept what I did..Though he didn’t like it even a bit n one of the strongest objector still he let me do it to make me happy.

I’m thankful for giving me Aya..

She makes me feel complete..

you know, not lacking,

I do have flaws,

But she makes me feel...me..

This is exactly her to me although this is actually quoted from her blog..Didn’t know for whom it was actually dedicated to though..

I also am very thankful to friends who supported me..UMP friends Wani(ko mmg sgt mengharukan) n her roommates, Fat(sorry for making u cried n thanx for sticking by) n everyone that I’ve troubled before(Along thanx..I’m touched)..

Love you guys so much..

Well this is definitely not last from me..ciao..

Sweet september..

2009-09-30T05:49:00.001+08:00

I'm a lucky person..Do u know y?
It's because i have those who are very dear to me..Coincidentally most of them were born on the same month..This is surely my sweet September..

Sweet september everyone!!!

5 September 1988
This is Fatihaf.. We didn't know each other long but we were definitely instant friend. She has this ability that can make people say even the most guarded secret with her.. Maybe it's just because she can be trusted..She's friendly but not overly so and she can blend well with people.She's the one who thought me how to eat hot stuff..

22 September 1989
This is Zalila or sometimes i just call her Ila..We were friend since high school..I never know that she actually didn't like me so much in high school since i got in a relationship with her crush(i swear i didn't know it on that time she can be very secretive if she wants to) until she told me so during our matrix year..Since then we become close..We eat,we sleep we do lots of crazy things together..Matrix was fun only because of her.She might seem to be very quiet but once she has something to say she just couldn't stop..She was funny that way..hehe..

24 September 1989
Intan Syafinaz..Even her name sounds glamourous..She's pretty n she has beautiful voice..She's also very kind n fun to be with..She can be quiete stubborn but she will listen to the advices given to her..People are easily attracted to her especially guys because she is just nice..She know how to treat people well..She's one of wani's roommate n i become close with her since i stay in their room last sem..

'My name is nurul syazwani binti rohaimi..You can just call me syaz.."This is how wani will introduce herself to people..Until today i refuses to call her that n always sabotaging her introduction buy insisting people to call her wani to. She can talk non stop for the whole day..Whenever i'm with her we will talk n talk n talk oblivious to the surrounding.She don't like to find friends but once u r her friend she'll be loyal till the end..I'm lucky to become one of them..

All of them are as crazy as i can be..We do lots of stupid n fun things together..They made my life more colourful n meaningful n give me a lot of beautiful memories..

Happy bestday guys..
Hope our friendship will last till the end..
I love you all...

Riangnya raya-cucu majid's versions..

2009-09-21T16:37:00.006+08:00

Raya was fun..Especially if u got a family like mine..Just see it for urself..hehe..

Still as always Acap manage to steal our spotlight..

Atuk came down to check on us..Maybe he was afraid we were going to tear his shack apart..

Ooo did u guys see that??

Raimi the assistant photographer along with the lense..

Mighty2 Kak Chah..

U can see that we still follow the tradition of forgiving n the giving of 'duit raya' session..

Up..up to the sky!!!yeay....

Us at the fish pond..

Me,Kak Chah,Eqa n Along..

Senyap2 nk bakar mercun sbnrnye ni..

Hehe Jamun pn nk raye jugak..

Graceful lady in the pic:Kak Lin,Kak Atie,kak Iefa,me(just pretend that i am this time will ya?) n eqa..Cute kids:farish n Acap

Abg Ijan n the kids..

Hot chicks on the loose..

Why we shouldn't have wifi during raya holiday..

2009-09-19T17:56:00.004+08:00

This was the phenomenon i saw on my first day at kampung..
Macm2 jenis laptop ade..Merata2 n bersepah2..Bukak jela kalau nk berinternet..Xpn movie..Dahla laju..

Raimi n Acer..

Kak Lin and Axus

Kak ifah n Dell

RAimi with another Acer n Along with his Apple..

Sempat lagi biarpn berkain batik..

What happened to the old traditional way of mingling n socializing during raya preparation??~sigh
Manela wan xbising kat dapur..Hi tech betul cucu Majid ni..

Over the cloud..

2009-09-16T05:42:00.005+08:00

Ever heard that love has it's up n down?
Sometimes it does make tears as my new brand of face moisturizer but
I'm totally above the cloud right now..

I just feel like jumping over the moon..I feel like i can fly over the highest mountain n swim through the deepest sea..I feel like i can do anything even if it's impossible..I'm this happy..

I'm soo happy that i can't wipe this stupid smile out of my face..I'm soo happy that even the stupidest jokes can make me laugh to tears..I'm so happy that nothing can dampen my spirit right now..

The point is i'm just simply happy......
It makes everything seems worth it..

Thanx sayang..U make my day..

Right on the 20th of ramadhan..

2009-09-10T16:55:00.004+08:00

I never thought that time can pass this fast..Without realizing it today is already the 20th of ramdhan..It kept me thinking how did my ramadhan actually pass..Did i use this month as much as i should have??The answer is disappointingly no..

It's not that i didn't do any good deeds at all it's just that i don't think it's enough yet..I'm too busy chasing the hectic life of a student in UMP(excuses..excuses..i'm just full of them i know..)
Today is also the last day of bazaar in UMP>meaning lesser food to choose coz lot of stall already closed..I won't miss the food that is for sure but i will miss the excitement of it..It is fun to watch people buy their food for breaking fast..They usually buy more than what they could eat..Remember people fasting it's not all about food..Out of many things it's suppose to teach us not to waste money on unnecessary items..~sigh~..
I would miss the tarawikh..Hopefully i can complete them this month as alhamdulillah so far i did not miss any..(this will be the first u know out of my 20 years life-i should be ashamed of myself i know huhu)I can't wait going back home again as i like going to the mosque with my mom..It is because i like laying my head on her shoulder during prayer after solah n hear her zikr recitation.I felt calmed and loved.All the tense will just go away..What a bliss..

As another normal muslim i also wish for lailatul qadr..Hopefully i can get it this year..Who don't want the best night of a thousand month?
Raya is just around the corner..I haven't found my baju raya yet..I've shopeed to lots of shop but disappointingly the trend for this season is all see-through material which is soo not my type...I really hope by this raya i can find a decent blue baju raya(yes i want blue,i haven't have one yet)..
I looove fireworks..Can't wait to play them with my cousins at my kampung..My head already kept playing the 'balik kampung' song sang by sudirman..But the fireworks in my kampung of coursela is soo not going to be like this one..
Yup this is more to the image of my cousins playing fireworks..Hopefully there's no more shirt burning this year(my cousins had once burned another's cousins newly-bought dress while playing fireworks..Just imagine the noise of her cry..It was newly-bought!!!U know how kids and their baju raya are like..I hope i don't have to go through that again..Moral of the story;don't wear newly-bought dress when u play with fire..accidents happen all the time)
i don't know whether we r going to make lemang this year or not..Hopefully not..It was tiring make me feel hot,sticky n smell of the smokes n i don't even like them!!I will be the strongest suggester to my grandma to just buy them this year..It is cheaper, easier n smoke-smell less that way..
Well that is all of my 20th ramadhan story..Actually i just want to get through my english lab without killing myself(it was bored as a vacuumed space n god knows what i can do when i'm bored) ..So long for now..

Happy ramdhan n Selamat Ari Raya..Safe journey to those whose going to return to their home n a nicely said 'padan muka' to those who can't(especially friends who studies abroad..hahaha)

-love-

I'm an awesome blogger..

2009-09-03T16:48:00.004+08:00

Membuktikan betape awesomenya aku,aku di tag sekali lagi dr Farah(wpn die dh tau aku dh buat mende alah ni)xpe untuk ko Farah aku buat sekali lagi..Hehe

1. 5 fakta menarik tntang pemberi award...
-Aku suke dengar suara dia xtau kenapa..Kalau ckp laju n excited gile..
-Kalau gelak satu ump boleh dengar kot(penokok tambahan cerita yang melampau)hehe
-Aku suke tajuk blog die..sesuai dengan muke die..
-Kuat makan kot..(mengata wani ko pun sama je)
-Follower pertama aku..Thanx for the support Farah..

2. setiap blogger harus menyatakan 10fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya..
Hehe aku dapat syok sendiri cite pasal diri aku lg..

1-Aku pandai simpan duit tp aku lg hebat dalam mengabiskannya..
2-Aku suke buat mende gile..Ajak jela aku mesti aku on je..
3-Aku suke waktu malam..Kalau boleh sume mende aku nk buat malam..Sbb tu tyme cuti waktu tdo aku terbalik..bertuah punye anak dara..Aku boleh xtdo mlm wpn siang aku xtdo tp xleh xtdo siang kalau xtdo malam..mcm mane tu??hehe..
4-Aku sangat2 suke membaca..Bg jela aku buku confirm aku xkacau orang dah..

5-Aku xreti duduk diam sampai kadang2 orang pn pening tgk aku..
6-Aku suke senyum sbb org ckp kalau aku xsenyum muke aku kerek gile..ade ke patut..

7-Aku seorang yang sgt cuai..Selalu tinggal n lupe mende..Nasibla aku dikelilingi org y sentiasa mengingatkan aku..

8-Aku suke jalan pegang tangan org..Kalau tgk aku jalan dgn org mesti tangan berpaut..Agaknya fobia kot waktu kecik selalu terpisah ngan mama..Maklumlah aku kn xreti duduk diam..Aku rase semua shopping complex kt ktn ni wktu aku kecik2 dulu pernah announce name aku..

9-Aku lagi suke main dengan budak2 dr dgn org baye aku..Konon nk jaga diorg kat teman padahal naik turun gelongsor sekali..hehe..

10-Nenek ngan mama aku suke cubit aku..Aku pn musykil kenape..Aku baik tau..

3. anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe ttg mereka...

Idham-bakal arkitek yang sgt rajin membantu temannye..hehe

Nizam-peminat siti yang setia..lebih kurang je dgn wani mamat ni.

wahid-Aleesya dh sebati dengan jiwa die kot..

Kak Nana-senior yang berjiwa mude..

Abg Amir-Tegas tapi baik sbnrnya..

Abg lan-Otomen yang selalu tersilap raksaksa..hampeh tul..

Syidek-Aku suke tgk minah ni kalau die dh start bergaya..Vogue abis..

Abg Bob-dealer cupcakes..nk cupcake boleh tempah kat die ek..

Farah-Aku xkire aku wat due kali ko kene wat 2 kali gak..

ok dh siap second tag..rajin x aku??xde keje tul..

Cheer up dear..

2009-09-03T00:13:00.004+08:00

Sayang,

I'm not going to sweetened the truth..

Life's sucks..It's a fact that had been confirmed by lots of people..

But it doesn't always be..

There will be moment that make ur life seems worth it..

Sooner than it seems life's will turn around..

And u'll be back smiling and laughing cheerfully again..

I can't promise that life's will be easy on u,

But i promise u,i'll stay the whole way through..

When u r tired u'll always have my shoulder to lean to,

My hands to pull u up again when u're down,

n do know that i'll cheer for u till the end..

So please don't give up,

Don't break down,

U are never alone,

Coz no matter what u'll always have me..

-Love u-

Chiayou2!!

ps:it's not a poem..that's y it doesn't rythm..

A gift from Serikandi..

2009-09-02T16:42:00.003+08:00

Firstly i need to copy this award n paste it to my blog..

I'm done!!

Wani, just admit it i'm not only ur awesome blog buddy but i'm actually ur awesome everything..hehe..
Nway here we goes..

1. 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award..
Perlu yang menarik ke?hehe..xpela aku try..
a-mcm angin..kadang2 boleh jadi sejuk n mendamaikan kadang2 boleh jadi taufan(cehh puitisla pulak..
b-kadang2 boleh jadi mak kadang2 boleh jadi adik yang sgt manja(just jangan menyemak nk bermanja dgn kakak2 aku bleh x?syibukk je..)
c-xsuke cari kawan tp kalau dh jadi kawan die mmg die jaga elok2..
d-geng sengal aku..kalau ngan minah ni ada je mende gile kiteorg buat..
e-suke melalak..kalau kero tu sampai kena rampas mike..hehe..aku rasa kat ump ni xde lg org boleh challenge soprano die..

2. setiap blogger harus menyatakan 10fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya...
a-aku akan ckp ape yang aku rasa..xsuke simpan2,pendam2 takut lama2 jadi dendam..
b-susah nk marah cepat sejuk..tp kalau aku tgh marah tu jgn dekatla..
c-bg aku kawan sejati adalah org yang akan berterus terang dengan aku xkira betapa pahitnya bukannya bermanis mulut di depan di belakang mengata.. sbb tu aku kalau kawan dengan orang aku akan ckp lepas je..aku xnk diorg malu depan org lain..
d-mulut aku jahat,ckp xberalas tp aku xguna bahasa kesat..i have better manners than that..
e-ayu,sopan,lembut are totally the words that don't describe me at all..
f-aku suke kalau orang tegur aku..maknanya aku tau aku salah kat mane..
g-aku suka masak tp aku xpandai..still dalam proses pembelajaran lg..sian sayang aku jadi mangsa experimen..hehe..
h-aku tersangat2la penakut..tp kalau datang terjal aku nk menyakat orang sanggup nyorok dlm semak malam2 semata2 nk sergah org..hehe..
i-kalau aku cakap aku sayang memang aku sayang wpn kdg2 nmpak mcm ckp main2..
j-I-AM-HUMAN(tiru aya..hehe)...I got lots of flaws..I rather be rejected for who i am than be accepted for who i'm not..

3. anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe ttg mereka...
aya-my sweet escape..
zalila-nmpak pendiam tp kalau bercakap xreti nk stop..
hanan-kadang2 kering kadang2 tembam..mcm mane tu??
dikwan-adikku yang lg tue dr aku..pelik??
along-syampoo yang busuk..jgn marah long..
eyqa-budak kecik yang comel
wan-he n his famous last word..
kak hana-64% resemblance with Leonardo Dicaprio..hehe..
niza-muke garang tp kalau senyum sweet sangat..
paie-kecik2 cili padi..

I've done my part!!Till later..ciaou..

What i feel right now..

2009-08-27T14:52:00.005+08:00

I feel like...

I love driving..
I feel like i just got myself a car(yahoo!!)..Then i drove myself in my heavenly new car without realising that the longer i drive the faster i go and suddenly EeEEEekkkk!!!CrAshed!!Boom!KebabOm..I was injured n it hurts badly..Feels like i'm torn into pieces..
Then my car is repaired n my injuries were healed n still i drive..Did i mention i love driving??This time slower but again when i feel safer i start speeding again n again EeEEEEekkkk!!!Crashed!!Boom!!!!Kebabom!!I was hurt badly..again..One more time..
And this continues on n on as i love driving very much..A few itty bitty minor injuries won't stop me from loving the sensation of it..
Until today a person offers to drive for me..I quickly rejected the idea since driving is like my life..My mind,body and soul don't seem like willing to accept it.I don't think that i'll be as happy as when people drive for me than driving myself..Driving is mylife(i'm being repetitive i know..but try to get the point will ya?)..
But i do feel the difference..Though letting other drive for me was not as thrilling,exciting n doesn't feel as a part of me than driving myself but i do feel safer..
The question is should i stop driving??

I don't make sense i know..It's just that really what i felt right now...

Breaking fast with hundreds others..

2009-08-27T10:18:00.005+08:00

MPK park..
Kuantanian might be familiar with this place..Located just beside the state mosque it was usually used for sports events like football and net ball.
Never in my entire life that i thought people will use it as a breakfasting spot..Yet that was exactly what we did on our fourth day of fasting..We were not the only one there so u all can stop the speculations that we were dating on ramadhan..We were actually breaking fast with hundred others.. hehe..
We bought our food at a nearby bazaar..There were so many food there..It was nice to see some variety from UMP bazaar.We had about an hour tour there but unfortunately by the time we decided to buy food most of the food were already gone(i really want to try that oblong beef or chicken thingy!!)..
No matter how people came,by family,friends or pair, everyone seems to be very excited waiting for Azan at the park..Me was totally included in that excited category..New experience always thrill me..
I like the view during twillight.The skies are just simply beautiful and that day was no exception..Too bad Aizat didn't seem to be very appreciative of the view..Might be because he was too hungry to care..hehe..
It was like breaking fast picnic style..It was actually a nice activity to try during this fasting month..Since it was located near the mosque it will be easier to continue our tarawikh there..

Searching for a spot to eat..

Told u there's a lot of people there..If ur eyes are good guess which one were us?

Alaa lapar ye..Siannye..Jap je lg berbuke ye..

Azan time..This time voices were no longer heard..Might be because they were being respectful toward azan or might also be because they were too busy munching.. hehe..

So long for now..I got test to study...till next tyme..
-love-

ps:should've update this post before..But the internet was slower than snail..siput betulla..

Ramadhan the second..

2009-08-23T18:54:00.002+08:00

Firstly I’m sorry…I truly did..
Yesterday’s event was totally an accident..I didn’t mean to disrespect ramadhan..I love this month remember?

I received a lot of messages yesterday..

At first I was happy like “yeay I got a message!!” but when I opened them, coincidently they were all started with “You went karaoke-ing on the first of ramadhan???U should’ve known better than to do that!!” or something like that.. I was like “eeeek!!What the heck??I’m soooo busted..”

I think yesterday was the first time I had ever been scolded by lots of people in one day..Till today I was still a little phobic to receive any messages..

Yes I should’ve known better...I’ve been thought by the best of people.As what I had said before I lost with myself..I’m sorry..No excuse from me..I know that even if I didn’t fast yesterday I should respect those who did.

Again I’m sorry..Forgive me please n thanx for always being there to give a little whipping when I need it..I guess in a way I’m still a child that need to be constantly reminded n disciplined.

Love u..

2009-08-22T11:31:00.002+08:00

Things that aren't suppose to do on first day of ramadhan..

1-Karaoke-ing

Mask on everyone..But it surely didn't stop us from singing..hehe

Me and intan..It had been awhile since we hang out together..She totally rocks today..hehe..

Wani and her tracksuit..

2-Wasting money..

I really shouldn't buy anymore clothes..But which one do u think is better?hehe..

We r not thieves..We r just here to shop..

I'm having fun!!Told u ramadhan is fun..But i'm not celebrating it the right way..
I know what i did was totally deviated from the things that i suppose to do on ramadhan but still the temptation is too high..I lost with myself..~sigh..

Actually this morning Wani asked me if i can drive them to clinic since intan was sick..
I swear it was totally not in our plan to drive until Kuantan..We totally were not planning to go Karaoke-ing n shopped around buying clothes n things to waste money..Wani was wearing her tracksuit for crying out loud..

But still as always when i'm with Wani we never could just go to a place n only do a thing..She do the planning n i do the driving..What a pair we make..Although Intan was sick but since she was also as 'sengal' as we r,she agreed to the wholething as long as we agreed to wear mask first.

Hopefully i can make it up tonight..I do want to be a become a better person through this ramadhan...

Happy fasting everyone!!

Happy ramadhan everybody!!

2009-08-21T21:55:00.004+08:00

I can see that a lot of bloggers already made their post on ramadhan..

Me myself definately don't want to be left out..So what should i say about it?

I just love this month..

I can say that i'm very excited to be in this holy month..Apart from all of those benefits of ramadhan, I don't know y this month always manage to make me feel as if all my wishes will be granted..As a night sky lover i would say that the nights on ramadhan are definately most beautiful..The moon, the stars n everyhing seems much brighter..They are also merrier since people go for tarawikh n the sound al-quran recitation can be heard everywhere..The people also seem much kinder(must be because they are fasting hehe)..It is also easier to wake up in during one third of the night since all the satanic voices that keep persuading me to go back to sleep are all gone..Not to mention our ibaadah quality seems to be improving compared to our usual month.

I also enjoy fasting..Not because i'm a goody person it's just that during fasting i don't need to think about food..Do u know how much eating consumes our tyme?It takes time to buy food,eating it n digesting it..Believe me by fasting we can save lots of our time to do something elses that are more beneficial such as sleeping hehe..i love sleeping..

Another reason of me loving ramadhan is because all the satans, ghosts n their relatives are all tied up(serve u right u demonic creature!!muahahahahahaha)..This means i'm no longer need to be afraid to go to toilet at night alone n wondering what kind of creature skulking under my bed for this entire month..What a bliss..

This is the month that i enjoy most..This is the month when everyone tries to be better..The month that contains thousands of benefits for those who seek it. The month to practice to be good and hopefully the practice will help us surviving another year..Ramadhan is definately the best month of the entire months..

Ramadhan mubarak..Kullu shahr wa antum bikhair..I hope u can enjoy ramadhan as much as i do!!Let us strive to be a better person from this month onward..We can do it!!!yeah..hehe..

ps:~Happy ramadhan sayang..Chiayou2!!

~To all my friends who are not going to celebrate ramadhan n syawal here in Malaysia; padan muka korang!!!muahahahahaha...Jangan nangis2 ye..Miss u all..

Aqiqah..

2009-08-16T21:50:00.004+08:00

Have u ever been to 2 ritual meal of Aqiqah b4?
To tell u the truth i haven't..not in my entire 20 year old life..So this time i was a little overexcited to be there especially because the Aqiqah was done twice in the row..First for my Mak Ngah's grandson n on the second day the Aqiqah was held for my Mak cik Ida's grandson..
I can't comment much on the ritual since sorry to say i slept through the entire blessing ceremony hehe(for those who know me they'll know that i can sleep in ANY condition..) but the food was superb..From the starter to the dessert they were just wonderful that u'll feel like u don't want to stop eating.Lucky me i know the host..Believe me eating in the kitchen is better since all the food source came from there(xpayah nk segan2 makan depan org..).Mak Ngah is definately one amazing caterer..
Okla i don't feel like writing much on this post..Actually there were more pictures but too bad those cameras are not mine n i don't have the oppurtunity to transfer them..so here's some pics taken from my phone..

Baby Iskandar..What a serious face..hehe..

Me n baby faris azizi..now.. now now boy..don't be shy in front of the camera..i don't want to take ur spotlight..

me n my cousins(kak rin n sarah)

Me n Hikmah..I don't know y,but lately when i came to Bentong,i met her??hmm....

kak rin n the food..(this pics actually requested to be put here..hehe)

~have a wonderful day..